A 30-year-old woman lost her transition after identifying as a trans man for 15 years


A woman has detransitioned after identifying as a transgender man for 15 years – due to ‘nausea and heart palpitations when taking testosterone’.

Singer Cat Cattinson, 30, from Santa Cruz, northern California, grew up female but identified as male from the age of 13.

She began her transition to becoming a man in March 2020 after spending years battling gender dysphoria; she took testosterone that saw her voice drop and her name was Tony.

Cat had planned to have her breasts surgically removed – but she soon began to feel nauseous and have heart palpitations when taking testosterone, which she had been prescribed by Planned Parenthood.

As a singer, she was also worried about losing her “high pitch” voice, so she opted to stop transitioning and stopped the injections in September 2020.

It was then that she realized she was happier as a woman – so she decided to detransition completely – and has since said she was surprised at how quickly she received testosterone, revealing that she did not require any testing or therapy.

Cat Cattinson photographed recently

A woman who spent 15 years living as a transgender man has opened up about her decision to detransition after experiencing ‘nausea and heart palpitations when taking testosterone’. She is pictured left during her transition and right recently

Singer Cat Cattinson, 30, from Santa Cruz, northern California, was born female but identified as male from the age of 13 (pictured)

Singer Cat Cattinson, 30, from Santa Cruz, northern California, was born female but identified as male from the age of 13 (pictured)

It took Cat a year to detransition and “watch a woman,” but she hopes she can keep singing now that she’s got her voice back – even if it’s not the same.

Cat said, “I always dressed in my dad’s clothes when I was a kid. I was a tomboy. I felt insecure as a woman due to childhood trauma and I think that made me feel like I didn’t belong in this body.

“I first realized it was possible to switch bodies when I was 13 and from there I was convinced that I wanted to make the transition to becoming a man. But when I finally made the transition and lived as a man, it didn’t feel right.

“At first, I was happier with my hoarse voice, but I started having pain and nausea. Now I’m happy in my female body.

At the age of five, Cat suffered a trauma that put her in danger as a girl and she asked her parents if a gender reassignment was possible.

“I thought of myself as a boy after that,” she said. “When I was a teenager, I found forums that talked about how it was possible to change sex. I felt then that I wanted to be a boy.

Cat (pictured as a child) began her gender transition in March 2020 after spending years battling gender dysphoria;  she took testosterone which saw her voice drop and her name was Tony

Cat (pictured as a child) began her gender transition in March 2020 after spending years battling gender dysphoria; she took testosterone which saw her voice drop and her name was Tony

Cat (pictured as a child) had planned to have her breasts surgically removed – but she soon started feeling nauseous and having heart palpitations when taking testosterone

Cat (pictured as a child) had planned to have her breasts surgically removed – but she soon started feeling nauseous and having heart palpitations when taking testosterone

But when she came out to her parents at the age of 15, she was discouraged by their response.

“They were worried about me and said I wouldn’t have a good life as a man and no one would take me seriously,” Cat said.

Cat put her transition on hold and struggled with eating disorders and bullying.

“I was constantly struggling with how I felt about my gender identity,” she said. “I became a bit of a hidden trans man.”

But after years of thinking she had tried everything, she decided to officially come out as a transgender man and consider transitioning.

“I felt like I would never be happy as a woman,” Cat said. “Getting testosterone was so easy – they didn’t require any testing or treatment.” I was surprised how quickly they gave it to me.

As a singer, she was also worried about losing her 'high' voice, so she opted to stop transitioning and stopped injections in September 2020. Cat pictured recently

As a singer, she was also worried about losing her ‘high’ voice, so she opted to stop transitioning and stopped injections in September 2020. Cat pictured recently

It was then that she realized she was happier as a woman - so she decided to detransition completely - and has since said she was surprised at how quickly she received testosterone, revealing that she did not require any testing or therapy.  Recently photographed cat

It was then that she realized she was happier as a woman – so she decided to detransition completely – and has since said she was surprised at how quickly she received testosterone, revealing that she did not require any testing or therapy. Recently photographed cat

It took Cat (pictured in transition) a year to detransition and ‘sound feminine’ again, but she hopes she can keep singing now that she’s found her voice – even if it’s not the same thing

At first, Cat was pleased with the changes – her voice became hoarser and deeper, and she began to lose definition in her breasts and became known as Tony.

“I felt like I had to transition so I could pass as a man,” she said. “But suddenly my voice dropped and I sounded like I had smoked my whole life.

“I no longer recognized myself. I’ve been a singer all my life and worried about what it would mean if I continued.

Cat also started having disturbing side effects. “I had heartbeats and felt sick all the time,” she said. “The pain was blinding and getting worse and worse.

“It was getting painful to sing and I realized I could never do it again, so I stopped taking testosterone.”

It took Cat (pictured starting to return) a year to fully revert to being a woman at the age of 30, despite only taking the injections for four months.

Photographed cat starting to come back

It took Cat (pictured starting to return) a year to fully revert to being a woman at the age of 30, despite only taking the injections for four months.

Switching from female to male with testosterone: what does hormone therapy do to the body?

The transition process is different for each person, with some transgender men choosing to undergo surgery to alter their physical appearance, while others simply rely on hormone therapy – including testosterone – to create masculine characteristics.

According to Planned Parenthood, for many transgender people, the process often begins with several social steps, including coming out to friends and family, and asking people to refer to them by the pronouns that match their gender identity (he/she, she/her, they).

Going with a different name is also a big step for some, as is dressing in a way that better matches your gender.

Medically, gender transition usually begins with hormone therapy; in the case of transgender men, testosterone is used to create more masculine characteristics, such as:

  • A deeper voice
  • Facial hair growth
  • muscle growth
  • Redistribution of fat away from the hips and breasts

Hormone therapy is also used to prevent a transgender man from getting his period.

It took Cat a year to fully become a woman again at the age of 30, despite only taking the injections for four months.

“I was bedridden because it was such a downer to take testosterone every day,” she said. “But now I’m happier with myself and my body and realized that a lot of my feelings about wanting to be a boy stemmed from that childhood trauma.

“My parents are supporting me now and I know their reactions are due to my worry. I had to learn to sing again and my voice is still different, but I still love music.

Cat’s parents said: ‘We are really proud of her. She continues to move forward in her life and help others.